Life Changes: "Mental State" quilt

When you have a powerful moment in life, certain things take on a kind of symbolism. At the time of my breakdown, I was in the process of making a quilt for Beelzebub my boyfriend at the time. When the breakdown hit, I purged myself of many things, but I couldn't bring myself to get rid of the fabric for this quilt, even though looking at it caused all sorts of anguish. So I boxed it up with the thought that I would know I had moved past that miserable part of my life when I was finally able to make the quilt and use it, without it causing me any painful flashbacks.

Mission f-ing accomplished!

 

I can't remember exactly how long it took me before I was able to tackle this quilt. Not nearly as long as I would have thought...a few months, maybe? By the time this quilt was started, I had met my current fiance, Jamie, and this fabric had lost its mystical power. In fact, it didn't bother me at all. I had a sense of wonder at the healing capabilities of the mind. Just a few months before, I wasn't sure I was going to live through my breakdown, and suddenly I was in a better place than I had ever been before. Funny, life is.

 

This pattern was just something I made up. By this point, I was sick of following patterns so I took the fabric and just played around with it. I'm sure this pattern exists elsewhere, but I didn't base it on anything. I just goofed around. I really like how it turned out.

 

I called it "Mental State" for obvious reasons, and it's not lost on me that it's got a few holes in it now. But it's still functional and useful and it still keeps me and Jamie nice and toasty on a chilly winter's day. I'll call that one hell of a win!